Gone forever

I suppose this can count as vent art... About a week ago I lost a close friend; she stopped talking to me, for who knows why. This was someone I was very close too and even crushed on for a long time, it hurt me badly and I still struggle with it.
the last week I've hardly slept or felt happy, but you guys always help me with that <3
I've been trying to get over it, like everyone keeps telling me too, but I keep holding onto something and causing myself even more pain. I feel rather stupid about it. But I'm recovering slowly!
This is from the song 'gone forever' by three days grace, brilliant song (Has helped me through this a lot!)
This line of the song fits to a tea. The rest of it is more what I wish I felt.
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Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years I
Still can't believe you're gone
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While these walls surround me with the story of our life

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all night
Get drunk and fuckin' fight
Until the morning comes I'll
Forget about our life

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever

And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever